The Stress Doc Letter
Cybernotes from the Online Psychohumorist
January 2000, No. 1, Sect. 2

Summarizing key issues raised in the popular series on depression and his own
meds trial, the Stress Doc provides a glimpse into the future: a sidebar from
the forthcoming book, Practice Safe Stress with the Stress Doc, published by
AdviceZone.com.
Top Twelve Tips for Beating (Mostly) Moderate Chronic Clinical Depression
1. Recognize the Reality of Depression. Your depressed phase has lasted too
long, with too many disruptive or intense symptoms - erratic sleep and eating
patterns, frequently on the verge of tears, chronic procrastination and
difficulty completing projects. You "just want to disappear" (as a
client recently expressed), and there's a generalized loss of interest,
pessimism, distrust and disorganization. The problem is likely more than just
extended grieving or having "a sad personality," as one therapist told
her client. The client had asked for a second opinion when, despite nine months
of therapy, good insight and vigorous daily exercise she still felt on the verge
of exhaustion. This woman still had to strain continuously to just keep up.
2. Begin to Let Go. Normal ways of coping wont work in this existentially
and biochemically troubling period. You're not just grappling with depressive
symptomatology, but also likely struggling with denial and shame; one must admit
that will power is not sufficient. This can be particularly confusing with
moderate chronic depression. In the past you were able to get yourself out of
your depressive box or cave. Alas, as we age, ongoing stress can impair the
effectiveness of our biochemical and hormonal systems. In fact, just using will
power, thrashing about to break the depressive bonds will probably exhaust you
further. You feel trapped in that black hole or have a heightened sense of
whirlpooling madness.
3. Acknowledge Shame and Ignorance. Too many people associate depression with
cocooning under covers for hours on end or covering up through various addictive
tendencies compulsive eating, drinking and sexing, TV watching, video game
playing, out of control shopping, etc. And, in fact, these may be accurate
warning signs. However, many Type A achievers also struggle with depression.
(Don't let resume size blind you to the possibility of depression.) For such
hard-driving folks, shame and inaccurate information often impede getting the
needed psychological and medical help. Especially if there's family history of
mental illness or mood disorders, acknowledging that one hasn't fully escaped a
genetic legacy can be a difficult step. And if you were or are the family
standard bearer, the one who exemplifies "improvement in the
generations," then giving in to depression becomes a sign of failure, of
letting others down.
4. Beware Drug Reaction. Despite the widespread use of SSRIs, many are still
resistant to exploring the use of antidepressant medication. These include
individuals who: a) erroneously see medication as a crutch or as a means of
simply numbing or masking emotions, b) had a troubling trial with the older
generation of antidepressant meds tricyclics or MAO Inhibitors, c) had an
unsuccessful brief trial with an SSRI, including troubling side effects and dont
understand that a meds trial is as much art as science; for some Zoloft works
better than Prozac or Wellbutrin may interact differently than Serazone with
other prescription drugs and d) have psychological if not medical scars from
previous drug or alcohol history; folks with family members who've struggled
with substance abuse also may be guarded.
Warning: If you are using alcohol in anything but very strict moderation,
taking antidepressant medication is inviting trouble. In fact, alcohol is
contraindicated. And remember, alcohol is a depressant drug.
5. Admit Dread of Losing Your Edge. For individuals with an agitated
depression as well as cyclothymic (a cycle of mood swinging) or bipolar
tendencies with pronounced highs and lows, especially where the agitation-mania
fuels productive efforts or creative outbursts, there may be understandable
resistance to a meds trial. There is a natural fear that ones existential and
emotional range, post-Prozac, will extend from the mediocre to the tapioca, that
is the blandly normal. While there is an adjustment period, with the proper
medication and dosage, over time my bias supports the likelihood of more energy
being freed for creative endeavor. Performance may take on a somewhat different
hue, but will still have your distinctive quality. (Email stressdoc@aol.com for
a provocative, counter-intuitive essay on "Van Gogh, Prozac and
Creativity.")
6. Find a Psychiatrist. A common medical mistake, if not a professional
abuse, is the numbers of GPs, internists, gynecologists, etc. who prescribe
antidepressant medication for patients without psychotherapeutic follow-up and
sufficient monitoring of side effects. The professionals best trained in the
realm of mood medicine are medical doctors with degrees in psychiatry and
psychopharmacology. Alas, even consulting with the latter specialists does not
guarantee proper meds dosage or regular supervision. The medical field is still
in the learning curve stages of understanding the bio-psycho-social dynamics for
overcoming mood and mental disturbance. As mentioned, finding the right
medication is as much art as science and must take into account individual
difference.
7. Integrate Psychotherapy. Upon completion of a proper diagnostic and
medication evaluation and the start of a supervised meds trial, if you cant
afford to see a psychiatrist on an ongoing basis, search for a mental health
professional experienced in the depression field. For chronic depression, look
for a therapist who is open to exploring the best biochemical and
psychotherapeutic intervention mix as opposed to a clinician whose bias pits one
approach against the other. The problem isnt just hair-trigger prescriptions.
Too many therapists still misdiagnose clinical depression as "deep
sadness" which can be overcome by "intensive working through."
8. Assess Initial Symptomatology. Conventional medical wisdom says it often
takes from two to six weeks for the therapeutic effects of antidepressant
medication to kick in. If you are so predisposed, that is, you react sensitively
to medication, be prepared to notice a mind-body difference in two-six hours.
This is an "N of 1" experiment and you are the star subject. Early
side effects may include sleep disturbance restlessness or a slothful lying
in bed, vivid dreams, having more energy, including aggressive energy and phases
of hypomania (a rash of impulse shopping, for example) and diminished sex drive.
Your mind-body system is adjusting to a biochemical sea change. As you adapt to
the meds and your depressed mood begins to lift, these symptoms may diminish or
your tolerance for them may increase. (Hey, with Prozac I had some unprecedented
and not totally undesirable side effects: I started grooving on chocolate and my
mildly diminished libido -- slowed ejaculation time yet without impeding
erectile functioning -- certainly drew no complaints from the ladies. ;-)
Sometimes side effects may be double-edged, e.g., some restlessness during
sleep opened wider the window to my dreams. Or even the drowsy morning haze
(once meds dosage was properly adjusted) became more a maze for mentally
meandering through dawning levels of consciousness.
Clearly, if the symptoms feel troublesome or confusing, do not suffer in
silence; you dont have to tough it out. Call your therapist and psychiatrist
for a medication consultation.
9. Assemble the Cumulative Evidence. In two-three months, with effective
medication and psychotherapy there should be noticeable improvement: more
energy, better eating and sleeping patterns, sharper mental focus, crawling out
from the barrel bottom, the return of laughter and a less generalized sense of
emptiness and teariness. In fact, the lack of reflexive crying, despite feeling
empathy at a traditional tear-jerker movie scene at the three month meds trial
mark opened my mind to the correlation between biochemistry, overt emotionality
and my inherent "sensitive nature." I could now be moved without
necessarily being flooded.
Much past and present jarring life experiences and behavior patterns are open
to reexamination and reinterpretation. From chronic procrastination and profound
shyness to impulsive or addictive tendencies ("recreational" drug use
as self-medication, for example), all may be influenced by a mood disorder or be
depressive adaptations. Your existence and essence was and is not simply a
byproduct of an intrinsically or intractably deficient moral character and
demotivated nature.
10. Use Self-Accepting Analogies and Self-Energizing Rituals. An important
part of integrating the depressive experience and being able to share it with
others is having accessible and vivid analogies and illustrative examples at
your command. For example, the feeling that one has been running with an
invisible 30-pound weight tied to ones ankle. Another way of framing the
problem: imagine yourself as a car that's slowly leaking oil and power steering
fluid. You're a quart low on oil. Can you still get around? Sure, but
increasingly, as the miles mount, there will be wear and tear on the engine,
transmission, steering, etc. If you don't plug the leak, major damage lies
ahead!
Also, integrate new rituals to aid your depression recovery-meds adjustment
process. If a slow starter, try some morning exercise. Personally, thirty
minutes of answering email after rolling (or crawling) out of bed is like a
warm-up for the creative writing looming ahead. If self-employed, for example,
find a coffeehouse that gets you out of the computer cave and that allows for
work and some socializing. Learn to take a rejuvenating post-lunch or dinner,
10-20 minute nap. (And now you realize the effects of depression, not just
"low blood sugar," may make this a necessity, not just a luxury.)
11. Confront Approach-Avoidance Conflict and Impatience. While mood uplift
and enhanced role performance is likely to seem remarkable, the challenge now is
not to shortchange longer-term growth for newfound chemical balance. In other
words, there's a lifetime of depressive ways of perceiving, interpreting,
relating, reacting and defending that need to be acknowledged. Old assumptions
will be put to the test. Much unfreezing and new learning must occur for ongoing
mind-body and interpersonal maturation. At the same time, all childhood
emotional or perceptual sensitivities and sensibilities need not be thrown out
with the darkened depressive waters. This process may be scary, though.
Long-term survival (albeit, self-defeating) coping patterns must be gradually
dismantled. Untreated depression is like being stuck with a 486 computer when
the world keeps changing at a dizzying pace. You cant or, more likely, are
afraid of or feel overwhelmed by upgrading.
The other concern, of course, is impatience, when your mood state and energy
levels aren't improving fast enough. Again, proper supervision for medication
and commitment to ongoing therapy strongly increase the chances of building over
time a solid foundation for recovery. Medication is not a crutch. Neither are
depression support groups, mens or womens groups, 12-step groups, etc. The
latter are normative resting, retreating and refueling stations on the
challenging journey of life.
12. Is It Forever Prozac? How long do you stay on Prozac or its chemical
cousins? I'm not sure there is a definitive answer. Each meds trial is as
distinct as the patient's genetic and life cycle history, along with current
resources, sense of affiliations and accomplishments, strength of self-identity
and future possibilities. Carefull supervised experimentation is the password.
Biochemical and emotional stability along with positive functioning over time,
yet still accompanied by some moderately disconcerting side effects, may signal
a window for trying a new antidepressant medication or for reducing your current
dosage. Regarding the latter, with strengthened attitude and activity levels,
less medication (thereby further attenuating side effects) without diminishing
therapeutic benefits is possible.
Some may choose to be meds free. I recall a woman artist in her 40's, after a
successful meds trial, announcing in a bar: "Prozac for the house!"
Yet she decided to stop taking Prozac upon basically overcoming her dark period.
She didn't mind feeling "a little blue on Sundays." Though I've
encountered more people who regretted or had second thoughts about stopping
their meds trial.
The combination of biochemical intervention and psychosocial maturation seems
to make some lasting repairs in neurotransmitter functioning. While long-term
research results for the SSRI meds family and its offspring are still in
transit, until there's contrary scientific evidence, I'm taking that "serotonin
supplement" (10mgs/day). This regimen is part of my natural path, one still
filled with passion and pain. And it's a path for recovery, resiliency and
rejuvenation. Amen!
Mark Gorkin, LICSW, known as "The Stress Doc," is the Internet's
and America Online's "Online Psychohumorist". An experienced
psychotherapist, The Doc is a nationally recognized speaker and training and OD
consultant specializing in Stress, Anger Management, Reorganizational Change,
Team Building and HUMOR! His writings are syndicated by iSyndicate.com and
appear in a wide variety of online and offline forums and publications,
including AOL's Online Psych and Business Know How, WorkforceOnline, Mental
Health Net, Financial Services Journal Online, Paradigm Magazine and Counseling
Today. Check out his USA Today Online "Hotsite" Website --
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